If you’ve read January’s blog, you’ll know that I’ve been struggling with the industry and the way it operates in Los Angeles. By the end of February, I was in a place where I wanted to quit all together so I decided the better option would be to take control. I emailed my agents and informed them that I would no longer tape in the evenings and at the weekends and that if auditions came in to tape at these times, I would be asking for an extension. I figured that I might lose the odd job opportunity but that would be better than giving up completely!
I can’t tell you how much it has changed things. I feel as if I have reclaimed my life and, lo and behold, I’m on avail for a well paid commercial which I firmly believe is because I am now happier in myself and with my work/life balance. I’ve been volunteering at the weekends with no fear of letting people down and I don’t have to worry about auditions coming in on a Friday afternoon or late in the day during the week for the next morning. Plus, I’ve had a couple of decent TV and film auditions which have satiated my creativity as both of them gave me several days to get a good feel for the characters and the project so, all in all, things have greatly improved.
In March, I went to my friend’s annual Oscars party which was fun but apart from, Everything, Everywhere, All At Once, my favourites were not winners. I thought Argentina 1985 was the best international film, Ice Merchants was the best animated short, Bardo, False Chronicle of a Handful of Truths had stunning cinematoraphy and my winner for the best documentary feature was, All That Breathes. It’s a beautifully quiet and funny documentary that follows a wildlife rescue in New Delhi where two brothers treat injured black kites. But alongside their story, we see poverty, pollution and social unrest. There are many living creatures in this documentary, most of which are considered vermin and scavengers but there is no judgement – all are treated equally by the filmmaker, Shaunak Sen, which is extremey rare and wonderfully refreshing to see.